Realizations....

The past two weeks I've been having realizations about myself:

1)        I am not a morning person (this is not news) or a night person..... Unless I am reading a fiction book. I can stay up till 3am reading if the book is that good. Right now I'm reading Insurgent (the 2nd book in the Divergent series). Which leads me to a second realization....

2)       I am getting fed up with characters in fiction stories who refuse to tell the truth, or withhold information that is vital. I'm not talking state secrets here, but if they would be a little more forthcoming with their significant others or good friends about what they are going to do, they may avoid these terrible situations they get themselves into in the first place. For instance, in Insurgent, Tris refuses to tell her boyfriend that she is going to sacrifice herself for a higher cause, because she thinks that is her only option. OKAY, he makes her promise not to, she lies, and does it anyway. She doesn't believe that he will come after her. He does, he almost dies, she practically dies,  and then has to be carried out midst gunfire on a crazy rescue mission. So boyfriend almost dies trying to save her from dying. Check. Then they talk it out mostly. And you would think she had learned her lesson to just blab when she's thinking about a crazy stunt. Nope not 2 days later she's back at it, lying to him again "because he left her no choice" UH yeah there's a choice, talk. Oh so irritating.

3)      Lastly, that the idea of "work first play later" doesn't work for me. I work much better after I have completed "playing". Say for example, I am reading a book. It's better for me to just read as much as I want, than for me to stop after a chapter or two  and go back to working. Once I finish the book I can then focus on work. I know it's weird, but having something to look forward to after I get done working doesn't work for me. That would be all I would think about, and I wouldn't do very good work. So I've discovered it's better for me to have fun first, get in a good mood, and then devote myself to work. Not sure how that works in life, haha but it's just something I realized.

"If you're waiting for the big finale, I'm sorry this is all I do."

I passed my thesis defense! Woohoo!!! Huge sigh of relief. Now I actually believe I will graduate with my master's. What a long, stressful, exhausting road. Many sleepless nights, hours in the lab, and hours upon hours of writing. I'm not done with the writing yet, but I will be.

For now I'm crashing. I don't care to think about anything. I thought it was just going to be for 2 days and then I'd be back to work, not so. I find I'm so tired that I can't do anything more than lay on the sofa and watch tv shows. Getting up, and having thought provoking conversations exhausts me. I think my brain and my body are all in, and need this serious downtime. Clearly I'm drained.

On that note, I have recently gotten obsessed with "24".  All through the process of preparing for my defense I would try and remind myself that no matter how bad my defense went, it couldn't be as bad as Jack Bauer's day.  I have made it through the first season, and am now 1/4th the way through the second season. And I still have 5 seasons to go after that before I even get to the new season which is airing now.

I must say, I admire Jack's daughter, Kim. For as many times as she has gotten kidnapped so far she has a head on her shoulders. Always thinking of ways to escape that aren't entirely stupid. Most of these shows I always get irritated at the women who get kidnapped, because when they try to escape they don't do it right, they don't think it out. Kim thinks it out. She's her father's daughter. She takes responsibility for her actions and tries to fix whatever mess she gets herself into, and doesn't whine and complain. I realize this is a fiction story, but I'm just glad they don't portray her as stupid. However, there is one thing that bugged me in the first season. She frequently used a payphone, but I'm never quit sure where she got the money for it. She didn't have a purse, and she was on the run, so that just confuses me.

I started reading "Divergent" two weeks ago and had to put it down for times sake because of my defense. I guess I'll pick that up again soon and finish it off. Training to be in Dauntless.... well that's just another impossible task. Which reminds me, I think I'm going to make a shirt like I've seen on Pinterest.... "Train like you've been picked for the Hunger Games" that should be a huge motivation.

Anyways that enough thinking for now, back to vegging.