Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. It can really grate on your nerves. You do what you should, and still you wait.
Right now, I'm waiting to hear back from professor about my statistics for my thesis. I have been waiting on this for a month now. Finally last week I got hopeful when I received an email and I thought "surely now I can get back to work and finish this up." But no, the answer hadn't come. Now I'm back to waiting again. Waiting is frustrating. I want to be done, and move on with my life, but apparently I have to wait.
Patience in waiting. Patience is a virtue right?!
If this waiting is all to teach me patience, I'm kinda scared of what the future might hold: what is this lesson in patience preparing me for in the future? I cringe.... Or maybe I just get to learn patience, and then move on to learn another valuable lesson.
I really don't know what I'm supposed to be learning while I wait. So I guess I'll try and develop other talents, and fill my time with other good things while I wait. I really, really, want to be in a different stage in my life, but instead this one seems to go on and on. So I guess I must take heart from Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, and Philippians 4:11-13
"To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven: A time to be born And a time to die..."
"11 Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: 12 I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. 13 I can do all things through Christ[a]who strengthens me."
"Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!" Psalm 27:14
And when Psalms says "He shall strengthen your heart" well that's great, because all this waiting has me utterly exhausted, and I really have no energy to do anything.
But I'll wait. There will most likely be tears and utter frustration, but I am determined that overall, I will wait on the Lord. After all, He loves me and knows what the future holds. If I can just hold on and wait....
